Some new stories

I've published a few short sequels in recent months. My horny muses have been hard at work. It's strange that every time I write an erotic story I feel like I've gotten it out of my system and that's it, there won't be any more... then my mind starts to wander and I get another idea... or two. But I have other non-erotica projects that I'm working on and I don't want to neglect them. And yet, one of these new erotica ideas is actually really intriguing in more than a sexual way. It's an erotic science fiction story about a married couple. We'll see what happens. Maybe I'll tackle it for NaNoWriMo.

Dirty vs. Really Dirty

A friend of mine read one of my stories recently and told me that the language wasn't very dirty. This surprised me. I thought it was very dirty. When I asked her for examples, she said that the characters could have called each other names.

I've never been too fond of name-calling. It seems mean to me.

My friend said that if the other person wants it, then it isn't mean.

True enough.

There are a couple moments here and there in my writing where one character might refer to herself as "a slut" or a dominating character will call their submissive a "bitch" but it isn't very pervasive.

I suppose it's possible I could write a story with a little more dirt in my dirty-talk. We shall see. :)

Finding Someone

I'm a single man living in a somewhat conservative community. I'd like to get married someday. Hopefully sooner rather than later as I'm already approaching middle age. I guess I'm worried that I won't be able to find someone who will accept the fact that I've written erotic fiction or that my erotica writing is basically an outlet for my sexual fantasies.

I'm certainly not the only erotica author who writes under a pseudonym. I've talked with other writers who live in communities similar to my own and it's very important that they keep their writing identities a secret. But I'm not one to keep secrets. At least not to the people that I care about. There are only a handful of friends of mine who are aware of my erotica writing and I want to be able to share it with someone that I love too. Not just the fact that I've written erotica but I hope that I'll be able to share it with her as well.

I think it's important that couples are open with each other about their sexuality, their fantasies and fetishes and I kinda like the idea of being able to say, "Hey, if you want to know what my fantasies are like, just read my blog and my erotica. It's all there."

As I date, I have to gauge who I think would be able to accept my erotica writing. This isn't easy. I don't come right out and say it, of course, but as I get to know different women, I can certainly figure out early on who might have a problem with it. I keep hoping that I'll find someone who not only won't have a problem with it but would be open to reading it and also sharing with me their own sexual fantasies in a fun and healthy way.

Sometimes I think that because of my erotica writing, I may have inadvertently isolated myself; adding a layer to my own persona that some women just won't be able to get past. But, then I consider the fact that as a storyteller and someone with a healthy sexual appetite and fantasy life, who wants to share said fantasies with the one I love, the only difference between me and anybody else is that I've written my fantasies down... okay, I sell them for others to enjoy as well. I suppose some women might have a problem with that too.

I really hope I find the one who'll just accept me... and soon.

Psychoanalysis

I've been reading some of my work and I noticed a trend in my writing: I seem to really like take-charge women. I wonder what sorts of things I could learn about myself if someone read all of my erotic writing and did a little psychoanalysis.

Tattoos

In my last post I talked about piercings and how I think they're sexy.

Well, I think Tattoos are sexy too... as long as the artwork is done well. Ugly tattoos aren't sexy at all.

I haven't described too many tattoos in my writing though a memorable one I did describe was a little star tattoo above Whitney's vulva in "The Kendra Collection".

I don't have any tattoos but I wouldn't object at all to a lover having them. :-)

My favorite tattoos on a woman are, I'll admit it, the lower back tattoos. But I prefer smaller ones to the larger ones. Though there's a Suicide Girl who has a fascinating leopard print tattoo on her back that I find very sexy indeed.

Piercings

I think piercings are sexy. Well, most piercings. Gauges can be hot until they get ridiculously big, then they're just disturbing.

I don't have any piercings myself, though I had a pierced ear for a couple of years. I doubt I'll pierce anything else in the future.

I don't know if I have a favorite type of piercing but it's probably a tossup between navel piercings and nipple piercings.

I once had a girlfriend with a navel piercing. It was very hot. But I understand that nipple piercings can add to one's sexual arousal, making nipples more sensitive to touch. That's probably hotter.

I have a character in my new story, "Camping with Christy," who has several piercings. Nipples, lip, tongue. She loves them and knows how to use them, especially her tongue stud. Of all the characters I've created for my erotic writing, I've got the biggest crush on her. Probably because she's based, in part, on a real person that I have a crush on... who happens to have a pierced lip. ;-)

Lolita Complex

I was once told, indirectly, that I have a "Lolita complex." This was in a review of "Kendra: The Business Trip" (the first part of "The Kendra Collection").

I've actually read Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov and I'd like to share some observations. The main character in Lolita is Humbert Humbert (not a typo) and he's sexually attracted to young girls or very young-looking women. This isn't because he was a pedophile per se (though "hebephile" has been applied to him), it's because as a child himself, he had a romance with a little girl that was never consummated; so he spends the rest of his pathetic life trying to capture what he never got to experience with his first young love. He then finally thinks he's found what he's looking for in the titular daughter of a woman he rents a room from. So, he marries the woman to be close to her daughter. Of course, he doesn't count on the fact that Lolita is just as conniving and manipulative as he is, if not more so.

I personally have no interest in young girls or even very young-looking women. However, seeing a voluptuous woman dressed in the outfits of young girls is an undeniable turn-on for me and a lot of other men. Yes, that includes the cliché Catholic school girl uniform. In the end though, for me, it's still all about the beauty of the female form, not the idea of being with jailbait.

I did have an online role-playing session with a woman who was looking for an "older man." I was glad to fill that role for our purposes and in the middle of it, she started calling me "Daddy." I have to admit, that really turned me on and that plays into the Kendra story (which was also based on a role-playing experience).