Do I have to share?

I was asked recently if I had to share my erotica writing by someone who understood that it's a way for me to find some sexual release (once I have a fantasy written down, it's no longer in my head and I don't dwell on it).

I have to admit that I feel a little conflicted about it. I'm a spiritual person and this is definitely not spiritual writing and while it is a release for me, it might not exactly be a positive thing for others.

I used to just share my erotica for free on the web site Literotica but now I'm self published and get a little income from my writing, which makes it even more difficult NOT to share since there's a monetary reward for it now.

There's also the part of me, which is part of any writer or artist, to seek validation and how can I get validated for what I do if I don't share it?

What do you think?

Thoughts on my latest project

So, I'm outlining my new story and it's bringing up a lot of interesting questions about ethics and relationships. It's also making me think about ethics and the use of the technology. While most of my erotic writing is pretty straight forward "sex stories," this is the first of my erotic stories that is proving to be as intellectually stimulating as it is sexually stimulating. I can only hope that my readers feel the same way about it.

Behind the storytelling

I've got a friend who writes erotica and people often ask her if her sex life is as exciting as what she writes. She makes it clear to anyone who asks that she's pretty vanilla in the bedroom and I imagine that's the case with most erotic authors. That their imaginations go places that they rarely if ever go in real life.

I've shared some personal experiences on this blog that show that I can be pretty kinky in bed but I've also said that I write about things that I'll probably never do for real. As "hot" as my erotica can get, I feel that I need to come clean about something... I don't have an active sex-life. I am, for the most part, celibate. I do date and as I said in a previous post, I'm hoping to meet someone to marry but I'm trying my best to hold off on having sex until I am married. I haven't been successful at this since I have slept with a couple of women in my life with whom I've had some amazing and somewhat kinky sex but they have been few and far between.

Writing erotica is how I choose to release my sexual energy instead of actually having sex and it works quite well for me. I hope that my future spouse will understand this and hopefully she'll be willing to read my work so she has a better understanding of my sexuality and appreciation of my fantasies, just as I hope she'll share her fantasies with me. Perhaps we can write something together.

Thinking about Star Trek

Yeah, I'm kind of a nerd. I love science fiction which is probably why I'm eager to get started on my next erotica project—an erotic science fiction story—so much so that I'm going to offer a bit of a spoiler here.

No, my story is not going to be erotic Star Trek fan fiction—though I have read a story or two along those lines. But it is going to look at one of my favorite pieces of "Trechnology," the holodeck. While I'll need to come up with another name for it in my story, I've always thought—from the first time I saw it on the series—that if I had my own holodeck, I'd use it to get laid. Hey, I'm just being honest. I'd use it to fulfill every sexual urge and fantasy I've ever had and, let's face it, if the technology existed in real life, that would be a major market for it. Sure, the educational and entertainment potential of something like a holodeck would be fantastic and very useful but I'm pretty sure that the driving force behind any advancements in the technology would be headed up by the adult entertainment industry.

So, that's what I'll be exploring in my story, from the perspective of a married couple that wants to explore their sexual fantasies together with the help of new technology.