Friday, March 29, 2013


I've been thinking a lot about when I lost my virginity and the month or so of torrid sex that followed. I'm debating whether or not to write a story based on those experiences... and maybe taking them to another fictional and sexy level. :-)

That being said, I'd like to share with you some of my early attempts at erotica writing. I don't think they're good enough to sell but some people found them enjoyable.

Thursday, March 21, 2013


I mentioned before that I used to engage in online roleplaying. Specifically sexual role play, aka "cyber sex."

Since I was essentially writing a story on the fly with my partners, this was the start of my erotica writing career. Some of my stories were inspired by role playing sessions, or even picked up where some left off.

I have played several different characters in my role playing sessions. Men, women and transwomen of varying ages and descriptions. Then I found a very interesting web site called F-list that provides an online chat space and the ability to create character profiles for one's avatars.

Even Stephen Olander is an avatar. My erotica writing persona. Here's the profile I created for him:

I also created a female avatar named Valarie who has a few different avatars of her own that she "plays" including a sexy alien and a "shemale" vampire.

It's particularly fun as a man, playing Valarie, pretending to be a boy or a transexual.

Some of my role playing included age play, which for various reasons can't be included in my erotica writing for publication purposes.

Perhaps someday I will write some erotic stories involving these other characters that I've created such as:

I've also always felt, since I first found this site, that it would be a good place for couples to go and share their various kinks with each other.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

The Casting Couch

They say that erotica is not porn but I'm honest enough with myself to admit that the erotica I've written isn't exactly high art.

I'm no stranger to porn though I don't indulge in it as often as I did when I was younger.

Though I sometimes fantasize about who would play some of my characters if my stories were ever adapted into adult films.

I can think of one performer off the top of my head to play the part of Katherine, Kendra's mother in "The Kendra Collection."

The lovely Rebecca Love.

Come again... and again

Porn is all about the money shot. Coitus interruptus following by a man aiming his ejaculate at the face or breasts of his partner(s). In erotica, one can simply describe coming inside someone, the visuals in the readers' minds can be much more detailed than what can be caught on camera.

In my erotica writing, I've written plenty of money shots. Why? Because, frankly, I think they're hot. But my male characters go places that most in porn do not. I love it when my male protagonists come on a woman's breasts and then lean in to lick her clean. I'm also a big fan of snowballing, the act of ejaculating into the mouth of your partner, then kissing them and sharing the semen.

It seems most guys treat their own come like it's toxic waste and yet they expect their female partners to act like porn stars, eagerly lapping it up and spreading it on their faces and bodies. My philosophy is that a guy shouldn't expect his lady to do anything that he isn't willing to do himself and that includes eating his own come and I think it's incredibly sexy to lap it up off of your lover's body.

I know what you're thinking: "Have you done it?"

My answer: Yes, I have. And I love doing it. I remember the first time I did it. I pulled out of my lover when I came and ejaculated onto her belly. I then leaned down and licked it off of her.

"You are so kinky!" she said with delight.

Another night when we were in the throws of passion, she said to me, "I want you to come in my mouth."

"Really?" I asked.

"Yes. I've never wanted to do that before."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes... how do you feel about snowballing?"

When I felt myself about to orgasm, I pulled out of her and straddled her body. I thought I would just come on her breasts but she moved in and took my cock into her mouth just as I started to ejaculate. When she pulled off of me, I kissed her and she spit my come back into my mouth. I didn't mind the taste at all and was really turned on by the experience.

I don't know why it is most guys are turned off by this. Where is the romance in saying, "I'll go get you a towel."? Semen is just another bodily fluid. How many times have you cut your finger and put the bleeding apendage into your mouth? I'd say most people know what their own blood tastes like, why not know what their own come tastes like?

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Ménage à trois

Some of my earliest sexual fantasies involved two or more women. It's become a cliché that all men wish they could have two women at once and I'm not going to deny that I fit that mold. I've even occasionally wondered how I might make something like that actually happen, though it never went past the musing stage.

Then I actually had sex for the first time and realized that I may not be up to the task of pleasing two women since focussing my attention on just one seemed to take up most of my energy. Of course, the idea of two women pleasing me as well as each other continues to be a favorite fantasy.

As I started to be more aware of my bicurious tendencies, my fantasies, roleplaying and erotic writing started to include encounters with transwomen. I figured if I was going to explore someone else's penis, it would be easier if it were attached to a beautiful T-girl.

I guess that's what they call a slippery slope because after a while, the idea of a ménage with a woman and another man soon followed. At first with just the idea of me and the other guy pleasing the woman but soon we were pleasing each other under the hungry gaze of our lady friend who, of course, was incredibly fascinated and turned on by watching her two male lovers having sex with each other.

While I still fantasize about the classic MFF threesome from time to time, and enjoy thinking about being with beautiful transwomen, I have to admit, the majority of my personal sexual fantasies are of the MMF variety which constitutes the main theme of my favorite erotic writing project, "The Kendra Collection." It also lead to my first attempt at writing an MM story which I have discussed elsewhere.

Monday, March 18, 2013


A recurring theme in some of my erotic writing is pegging. The practice of a woman using a strap-on dildo on a man.

I was trying to remember where I first saw this. My earliest memory of it is probably from junior high or high school and reading a review of an adult movie in a magazine. The accompanying picture was of a woman crouched behind a man on his knees. She was wearing a harness and it was obvious that she was penetrating him, even though the photo didn't show everything.

There was something intriguing about that image though I didn't explore the idea of it again until years later.

Today, I'm turned on by the idea of role reversal in the pegging dynamic. I'm attracted to strong, confident women and while I'm not sure if I would enjoy the physical sensation of being penetrated anally by a dildo, I can honestly say that I'd be willing to try it for the right woman. Especially if the idea of it turns her on as much or more than it does me.

I've read, and written, about how wearing a strap-on dildo and penetrating a guy can feel empowering for a woman. I'm actually more turned on by the idea of getting on my knees in front of a woman wearing a strap-on and going down on her fake cock. Licking and sucking on the dildo as I look up past her bare breasts and into her eyes. I imagine her jaw dropping in fascination as she watches me bob my head back and forth on her silicone member.

The closest I've come to this experience was a time or two when I was making out with a lady friend and I started to suck on her fingers. I loved the look on her face. She was fascinated by the site of me taking them into my mouth. We had talked about pegging and MMF fantasies before and I knew she was imagining me sucking on a cock as she felt my wet, warm mouth and tongue on her fingers.

I also had a conversation with another friend about pegging, in which we both confessed having fantasized about trying it. I told her that I would let her do it to me but we never tried it.

Someday though, I certainly hope to.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

The Exception To The Rule

I'm not gay... I'm not even bisexual.

However, on the Kinsey spectrum I'm probably bicurious. Which is why if a situation ever arose where I absolutely had to have sex with a man (like if the fate of the world and/or the human race depended on it), I wouldn't object to making sweet love with Andrew Garfield.

Saturday, March 16, 2013

How I Got Started

I was recently asked by a friend how and why I started writing erotica.

Well, I used to participate in online sexual roleplaying and anyone who's worth their salt in the games of online sex knows how difficult it is to find a compatible partner or to get the story of the roleplay to go where you want it to. There's always the need to compromise and sometimes double back in the middle of a scenario. I've been lucky enough to have had one partner who liked to outline a story with me. We would have a general idea of where our playtime would take us and then we would write the most elaborate and descriptive scenarios.

Unfortunately, we weren't always able to get together to play and trying to find other partners proved to be very disappointing. But one thing that I always took note of whenever I roleplayed with someone was the recurring complement that I was a really good writer and very descriptive in my roleplaying.

So, one day, I decided, "To hell with finding partners. I'm just going to write out my sexual fantasies and take the stories where I want them to go."

I started by publishing my work for free on Literotica then, after meeting a friend who had her own erotica published, I took the next step and self-published some of my own work.

The rest, as they say, is history.